due to the explicit content on this post, i warn you in advance that whatever written here is sure to offend some people(friends only) hopefully with expressing my anger i won't get caught by the police or whatever shit...

alright then, i am pretty much sobered up and it took fucking 2 days for that to happen..and yes i'll start bashing now can't barely store all the anger...

why does god create friends for? have anyone ask you this question? well for a christian the answer's simple, but for others it maybe a logical answer without the religious tones..

my answer is simply like this, friends are people who are not your family members and neither are related in blood, but are people who generally have the same age mindset as well as understanding one and other because of the same events we experience together, be it happiness, anger or sadness, friends are always there to help.

well thats what i feel it should be but for christians we think they are too holy and basically doesn't wanna mix with non-christians, why? i don't know. Even though i used to be a christian i can tell what the difference is, when i WAS a christian, other christians tend to talk to me more and we get to have more fun and thats the advantage, now the disadvantage is that one must be specificly religous enough to actually get along with them...

what i basically wanna say is that the christian friends i have are FUCKED-UP...why can't they just have fun? beer? a sin? then why did jesus drank wine? yeah i know we shouldn't drink until drunk but what i did when i was drunk was trash talking, and i did not rape any girl nor rob no bank. that is ok on few occasions, i even ask my friends to help me if i am so fucked-up...dudes, i ain't a alchoholic, i don't need alchohol to be happy, all i want is everyone of my friends enjoy with me and have fun
and you don't need to drink to have fun, for me i drink cause i wanna go into the party mode, but in this case the christians look at me as SHIT and TRASH...but what can i do? they need to be holy to go heaven. and i repeat, I DON'T DRINK ALL THE TIME!

well theres one thing i know that christians tend to understand each other better than non-christians because of religious relations and experience and the list goes on, but what a christian doesn't understand is that non-christians need understanding too. a christian sheds a tear for another christian because of one small thing, for me? i won't even cry for no one unless they are leaving me here in this fucked-up world merely because i am so used to sadness since i was young, does any of my friend remembered that i have a broken family? OH NO THEY DON'T, i don't even wanna tell anyone about it because its personal problems and i suffered alot through childhood as well,is that touching enough? no? CAUSE I AM NOT A FUCKING CHRISTIAN RIGHT?

i dislocated my leg the second time and the doctor told me i won't have a proper chance of playing soccer again, in fact i have to go for a surgery in order to carry on playing my fave past time..i was feeling real low and down because i really am getting into soccer alot, something that gives me a ray of light and something that makes me feel wanted, i could feel it may be a gift from God...touching enough? but does anyone cares if i can play again? well the christians don't even care! they have their own problems too

anyways everyone has their own sob stories, i as a friend am glad to listen to them but for those holier than thou peeps should learn to help non-christians...oh by the way, nobody really listens to my sob stories cause they think its to hard to believe, well fine i understand.

what's more dissapointing is that my best friend being a christian has basically ditched me for another christian friend, because i am not a christian anymore, i believe he became my friend in secondary when i was a cute christian...oh well people change..i will still be his friend no matter what, because i believe he is God's gift to me(being the only christian friend that time) and hopefully he treats me better and not just be proud and at least be equal to me...touching? maybe not...

have they helped during the chalet? no i don't think so...but i don't blame them cause they are my friends, anyways i thank gy for the organising and trouble buying the food, blackie for his marinating even though it sucks,xl for being my drinking buddy, terence for cooking the food for us <---lots of props to him thanks brother, and jeremy for his funny antics as well as jonathan for joining us in crazy fun, and to be honest i was really happy we are all together even though its been 5 years and i really don't wanna see all my brothers break up because of differences and i hope anybody reading this understands....all in all you are all my friends no matter what, even if i am angry of you i will still treat you as a friend....still not touching? its true you know...

last but not least, people tend to relate me as emo, let me explain why i ain't emo

1.before emo boom started i was already in that mood(during secondary school years being sad most of the time)
2.i am just ANGRY not sad or happy or a mix of shit
3.emo kids are sissies and they cry over one stupid shit
4.emo kids are gays, they like kissing and hugging people and even have anal!
5.i paint black nails posing to be metal head not fucking emo kid
6.i keep long hair because of metal

they are lots of other reasons why i ain't emo i just have no fucking time to bother explaining shit when its obvious i ain't one...

if you read this far, you have at least understand me at a percentage of 30%

AND REMEMBER I AM JUST A REALLY ANGRY PERSON TRYING TO LET IT ALL OUT IN THE SAFEST WAY! INSTEAD OF KILLING SOMEONE OR HURTING MYSELF!

posted by GORGE @ 12:27 AM