i shall attempt something no one has attempted before and that is to post the longest post and it will start from here onwards.

since i wasn't really blogging from the birthday event till now i will make a recall, my birthday was a celebration at a pub where vanessa worked named mama africa and there was a brasil - ghana match which ended with a 3-0 win for the faves...i even bet and won 8 bucks which is little of course, drank some german beer that tastes really good and sadly i was hoping i could get drunk on this very day but i didn't cause i did not have the mood...it felt like i was sad to be 18, people there were gy,hong,xl,gy's sis,vanessa,jess way to little people.....my bandmates ain't there cause i did not invite them and it was something i regret, reason why i left them out was because i don't think they will wanna go to the pub not to mention me being a lazy fucker...ITE friends can't make it cause they are busy but are making it up on 10 july but playing pool with me and going shopping for new clothes which i really need badly and ending the day with dinner and maybe some drinking...

theres the steamboat last sat and like usual very little people went for it, and i know because i was there that not many people wanna go, anyways the usual people vanessa, gy, hong KAN lah, liting and gy's sis wan ying...jess wanted to come but can't because of something that she fucked up or whatever...i was hoping she brings her violin and jumped on top of the table and play a solo from yellowcard's only one since she was supposed to come from her violin lessons or exams....and like what i felt on my birthday, the feeling of loneliness which i don't know why happened again and i didn't even drink any alchohol that day making it kinda boring...gy's pretty popular with the girls too

and theres chalet last wed organised by gy(again), usual gang went there and the unexpected visit from bj...and i can say this was one of the most boring chalet stay i had in my whole chalet experience...i had no one to talk to and i basically don't have any mood to mingle around...all i did was play ps2 and drank beer as usual while i watched the portugal and france match with everyone and that was the only moment that i felt excited for some reason and walking outside downtown east alone after midnight ALONE on the first day and drank 4 cans sitting at the shelter near the fitness corner listening to my metal music and staring into space, the next day was rather cheerful for me cause jeremy and jonathan came although i felt they will not come...feeling a little angry cause jeremy told me he will not be coming but came instead, the feeling of my bandmates being there removed any anger during that situation and i decided to talk to them about what we liked most...MUSIC like metalcore and jonathan has already hopped on the metalcore train which is surprising for me....what made me kinda sad though was that early that morning when i was very tired from drinking the night before that i was so sleepy i can't get up to play pool with the others...and all i had was mac's burger for lunch which i ate alone listening to music from wild wild wet...bj's wondering why i was like a pathetic dog and i just told her i prefer bring alone, but all i was thinking i was trying to avoid being left out..as promised i did not do anything stupid and crazy cause gy doesn't like it so i , as a good friend honored that promise and kept myself very NORMAL and unlike my usual self...


i was becoming a boring mother fucker that no one wants to talk to me...and i knew it all along...night came and we had the leftovers of the bbq and i send jeremy and jonathan back after we chat and ate at macs...walked with them to the bus stop and talked about jamming again if possible..everyone's busy with their own stuff except for me who felt that theres no meaning alive anymore..i don't feel like that same george anymore...everyones better than me...i never changed at all i am the same negative guy everyone knows...anyways i was deciding whether i should leave after bathing but stayed put cause xl ask me to...so i played with them and the rest of the gang came back from somewhere where i don't know and after that we went out to buy alchohol....again.....at the 7th eleven outside downtown east...i walked alone like it was endless and felt really really down...i can't explain why but its not because of anybody in the gang but myself...i was upset with myself...after buying the drinks we went back and i saw my ITE friend which made me happy cause at least i have someone to talk to while i drink, darren was awesome, he gave us some beer and kept me company while we talk about what we are going to do during the rest of the holidays and both of us felt that the holidays suck and prefer to go to school and i fully understand why he was sad too, the girl he likes rejects him and the boss he worked for haven't even give him his paycheck...we drank up to the sadness...then haresh nigel and xl came out to have a few drinks and nigel smoked cause well...nobody is supposed to smoke inside and played a few games of dai dee before going on to make that explosion nigel wants to, my fiend kept his friends company while i joined the gang to make that explosion and was really really bored that i brought along 3 cans of beer and finished most of it...i was like 1/5 drunk? but i am still in full control...then we waited for the fire to start.

while waiting for it, i took out the 2 cans of beer and drank it with xl...one shot fast and neat, and to tell you the truth, he ain't a good drinker(no offence)...he was already high after awhile while i didn't get high enough...he was starting to do stupid things which was very funny and made me laugh after so long and i was happy that at least he kept me company by being drunk like me...he doggy styled haresh while he was starting the fire...that was pure gold, anyways while we were waiting, i was so bored that i decided to try my first puff,i light up and took a puff and didn't cough at all cause the smoke did not go all the way down which is what first timers should react...i holded my breathe and was kinda stupid...

i let out the smoke and it felt fun like i was blowing bubbles...then xl took a puff as well and gy and terence...we shared the stick...after that we finally saw 3 explosions and it was so fucking hot and big....luckily no one woke up from the explosion and laughter we made. after that we went back and i wanted to drink more so xl and i took the remaining 8 cans and asked gy to accompany us but he was too tired to do it even though i told him that it was the last night and that at least we should get drunk together for fun...so i and xl went out to drink with my friend and we chatted about stupid stuff and i took another few puffs of the cig for fun of course while holding my breathe like an idiot and i will never try smoking again it feels stupid...then i and xl decided to finish all of the beer fast and get high, my friend, after 2 cans went back to sleep...i can tell he was out.

while i and xl finished everything we did stupid things together...i was laughing like fuck and was really feeling happy and i felt that i can't walk straight anymore...xl keep on telling me he can't walk straight like 4 times? and i was laughing like fuck as usual and he went to pee at the back of the chalet...i walk towards there and scared him and his reaction was freaking hilarious, i kept on laughing...then xl suggested we smash the carlsberg beer bottle my friend left and i said ok...in the end i did it in one shot broke it and laughed it away and went into the chalet for some sleep...it was the first time i see xl bring drunk which is really really hilarious...

he kept on talking cock and i kept on laughing...it felt so good that i can finally laugh after so long...for some reason i did not do anything stupid accept for the beer bottle which means i can still control myself even after drinking so much...the next morning i found myself lying on the bed with nigel and have absolutely no recall how i get there...the last time i was awake i remembered i was sleeping on the bed board...after that we all went back home, xl told me he had a little bit of headache while i told him i had a little even though it didn't felt like it....then it was time to go back...FINALLY!

boring but interesting thanks to my friend and bandmates who came to visit and lastly A drinking buddy who can get high with me was what made this chalet worthwhile, gy is angry with me cause i drank all the beer without leaving some for him and i didn't even pay for it...well the excuse i gave him was because i had no one to drink with that i decided i drink alone...pretty stupid of me to do that and i apologise for that...i'll make it up to them but buying them drinks next time and we shall get high together..anyways i thank everybody who went for the chalet at least everybody did their own thing...

this is sooooooo long that i bet some who read this will be bored halfway through
and for the record...i am no alchoholic..i just wanted to get high so i can feel happy and for fun...though it sounds like what an alchoholic would say, i know i can control it...trust me

as usual,
gorge signing off and blasting metal music at home alone

posted by GORGE @ 7:33 AM