now i i know i get depressed easily when i am not myself as in being quiet and all, i was trying to control myself from doing stupid things or things that are crazy or whatever that nobody will do, suppressing those behavior is fucking tough for i am kinda like those hyperactive jackasses.

i should have seen a psychiatrist when i was a kid was what i thought when i read this article.....

The symptoms of ADHD fall into the following two broad categories:[4]

Inattention:

1. Failing to pay close attention to details or making careless mistakes when doing schoolwork or other activities
2. Trouble keeping attention focused during play or tasks
3. Appearing not to listen when spoken to
4. Failing to follow instructions or finish tasks
5. Avoiding tasks that require a high amount of mental effort and organization, such as school projects
6. Frequently losing items required to facilitate tasks or activities, such as school supplies
7. Excessive distractibility
8. Forgetfulness

Hyperactivity-impulsive behavior

1. Fidgeting with hands or feet or squirming in seat
2. Leaving seat often, even when inappropriate
3. Running or climbing at inappropriate times
4. Difficulty in quiet play
5. Frequently feeling restless
6. Excessive speech
7. Answering a question before the speaker has finished
8. Failing to await one's turn
9. Interrupting the activities of others at inappropriate times

A positive diagnosis is usually only made if the patient presents with at least six of the above symptoms. In addition, a positive diagnosis is made if six or more of these symptoms presented before the age of seven; the symptoms usually begin to appear between the ages of four and six. Symptoms must appear consistently in varied environments. (Ex: At home, school, and in public.)

Children who grow up with ADHD often continue to have symptoms as they grow into adulthood. Adults face some of their greatest challenges in the areas of self-control and self-motivation, as well as executive functioning (also known as working memory). If the patient is not treated appropriately, co-morbid conditions, such as depression and anxiety may present as well. If a patient presents with such conditions as well, the co-morbid condition is usually treated first.

i fall into the Hyperactivity-impulsive behavior catergory...but i guess maybe i am changing now...or not? it is never late for me to see a psychiatrist but i give myself time to confirm if i really have this problem...

remember the time in secondary school? for no apparent reason i would fidget with whatever my hands can hold on to not to mention always leaving my seat for no reason but sometimes to always go to the back and talk no 3 rarely happens but i like climbing on fences and toilet cubicles even now no 4 is something i don't know but i can't stand quiet enviroments no 5 being restless for me is common...i almost sleep at least 2 times a day I NEVER PLAY SPORTS I STILL GET FUCKING TIRED no 6 excessive speech is something i never do now...i prefer to shut the fuck up..no 7 remember the infamous mr lee question when i got blasted for answering without him finishing the question? or the time whenever a teacher teaches i would always interrept? or give witty smart alek comments? definitely a habit even now...no 8 is a no for sure..i have patience, i think....no 9 is a habit of mine..i love disturbing people and its fun....

so you see, i have some kind of ADHD disorder without me knowing till i found out kurt cobain suffered the same thing...fated or lucky? i guess its good to know more about myself.

i give myself 2 months before i go see a psychiatrist...watch this space...if you care

posted by GORGE @ 6:28 AM